My friend told me recently that I live my life waiting for the other shoe to drop. Now for those of you who have never heard that saying; myself included, I'll explain. I live my life in anticipation that anything good in my life won't last, in this case, a relationship. Eventually every relationship that I have will dissolve. I was told that it was a self-prophesying thought pattern and a recipe for failure. Geesh, I never really realized that about myself. In my mind this sort of mentality is pessimistic, and I never figured myself as a pessimist, I always thought I was an optimist. While I will admit that there is a grain of accuracy to this "arm chair" psychology, I have my reasons. Thanks my fiend for the faux self realization. Ha!
On a less sarcastic note: Here is one of my favorite poems for your reading enjoyment.
Lullaby
W. H. Auden
Lay your sleeping head, my love,
Human in my fathers arm,
Time and fevers burn away
Individual beauty from
thoughtful children and the grave
Proves the child ephemeral;
But in my arms till break of day
Let the living creature be.
Mortal, guilty, but to me
The entirely beautiful
Soul and body have no bound
To lovers as they lie upon
Her tolerant entharted slope
In their ordinary swoon,
Grieve the vision Venus sends
of supernatural sympathy
Universal love and hope;
While an abstract insight wakes
among the glaciers and the rocks
The hermits carnal ecstasy
Certainty, fidelity
on the stroke of midnight pass
Like vibrations of a bell
and fashionable madmen raise
Their pedantic boring cry,
Every farthing of the cost
all the dreaded cards foretell
shall be paid, but from this night
not a whisper, not a thought
not a kiss nor look be lost
Beauty, midnight, vision dies;
Let the winds of dawn that blow
Softly round your dreaming head
such a day of welcome show
Eye and knocking heart may bless
find our mortal world enough
rooms of dryness find you fed
By the involuntary pours
Nights of insult let you pass
Watched by every human love.
Happy Easter and God bless
5 comments:
Yeah, that is kind of pessimistic and cynical. I try to be optimistic. One way to go about that is to count my blessings.
The thing is, lately, I've known too many people with cancer. I have perfect health. So just thinking of that, it puts everything in perspective. My problems are trivial.
Read A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. It was recommended to me, and I'm only a short way through, but it can really help you to see what is you and what is not, freeing you from the grip of negative thinking.
Zombie--You do strike me as an optimist. You're right we often forget our blessings until reminded when we see someone else in worse shape. ;)
Scott--I've heard that A New Earth is a life altering book. I'll give it a read. Afterall, it was on Oprah's Book List. hehe ;)
Yes, do read A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. Also, try The Power of Now. My husband read both. He said, "..liberating yourself from emotional suffering, resulting from ego which controls your thoughts. Ego is the root of all suffering."
Hey Blue! Long time no post. Never really thought of Ego being the root cause. Hmmm? I will definetly check out that book too. Thanks and don't a stranger. ;)
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